The Jokester

Donna Faulkner

(New Zealand)

The nice lady serving coffee at the market detects a slight twang of an accent when I say,

“Thank you.”

“That’s a lovely accent, where does it come from?” she asks.

I am reminded that I am a stranger. It throws me, it always throws me. How do I explain

my presence here?

She’s passing pleasantries but I feel like a fraud. The fractured accent is of obscure origin.

Refusing to be replicated on demand. My Loki voice is a jokester. Sliding into conversations

capriciously. Suggesting to those that really know me that I’m either very happy, very mad, or somewhere in-between.

I don’t know where I come from, not really!

I was born in a city I never once slept in. And my family of boomerangs immigrated frequently to other towns in other countries. Some boxes were never unpacked.

My voice is a choir of cicadas on a humid night in Huntly. It had butchered Christmas carols for pennies and pounds on a housing estate, in the 1990s.

I’ve lived by the coast, near a goldmine, in a house truck, in a tent. My toes are spread wide from a childhood in bare feet, my porcelain skin tinged olive.

I have lived.

I smile when I think of it. All the people that I have been.

But you can’t say all that to a stranger at a market.

I pause to think and sip my coffee, careful to prevent the froth forming a moustache on my lip.

“Everywhere,” I reply with a smile. Pink and white crumbs from my lamington settle like

confetti on my plate.

Download:

Donna Faulkner

is a

Guest Contributor for Panorama.

Donna Faulkner spent her childhood between countries. One foot bare and carefree in New Zealand, the other tiptoeing the coal dust and camaraderie of working class England. She’s been published in Bayou Review, 300 Days Of Sun, Windward Review,Havik, New Myths, and many others Her poetry collection ‘In Silver Majesty’was published by erbacce press, (UK) 2024. Instagram @lady_lilith_poet/ Twitter @nee_miller. https://linktr.ee/donnafaulkner

Loading...
<

Borders: Through the Gates of My Ancestral Island

Borders Through the Gates of My Ancestral IslandApproaching the Azores from the air seems unnatural, for descending upon them in such a ...

Further Posts

>

Borders: Hail Mary

Borders Hail MaryWhen my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer, the untreatable kind, she began falling asleep. At ...

Further Posts

Pin It on Pinterest